i just realized today that i haven’t been feeling really happy lately. i don’t know when i stopped feeling happy or even when it started trickling away, but it dawned on me today when i was listening to my friends talk about wonderful things happening in their lives and all i could feel was annoyance. i would call it jealousy, except i didn’t really want what they had, i just wanted to feel what they were feeling: happy. i recognize this in myself because it’s happened before. that when i lose the ability to feel happy for others, it means i am not happy myself.
i’ve been thinking of how i can be happy again. so far, i have:
-watch a musical
-take a getaway trip somewhere, anywhere
-lie on a grassy field and stargaze
-surround myself with puppies
-find a new favorite soundtrack and play it on repeat
-bake something exquisite
who knows. gotta start somewhere.
"I’ll try to see you again before I leave"
"See? That’s what I mean! It just seems like you don’t really care that much whether or not I see you again.."
"I would really like to see you again before you leave. I really really want to."
Ruby Bridges, the first African-American child to attend an all-white elementary school in the American South, escorted by U.S. Marshals dispatched by President Eisenhower for her safety. 14 November, 1960
This is so powerful.
She’s so brave
i’ve noticed that, as time goes on, the list of reasons that being in a long distance relationship is kind of nice starts to grow.
why it’s kind of nice:
why it’s kind of not nice:
— Buddah (via fuckoff-mondays)