last picture of my little nugget before she had to go back home with her daddy..
i love her
i get to keep her this weekend!!!!
she really makes me miss my old life though.. when we were a family. and i sound crazy but she was kind of sleeping and i just started talking to her like i always did and i asked her if she missed our family, with her mommy and her daddy together in the same house and we both loved her so, so much and gave her kisses every single day. i don’t think she misses it but i do.
I miss this little girl more than words can explain. I miss her I miss her I miss her. I feel like I’m slowly forgetting the little things I loved about her :(
Goldie, mommy misses you so, so much. Hope you’re happy!
last of the sunny days with my baby goldie
Hello, cold weather. please don’t be too harsh on me. i know i may have said some nasty things about you in the past but i promise i will cooperate this year if you do too. thanks.
i had lunch with a friend today. i had really missed her. after i graduated, i feel like our lives went separate directions because she’s still in school and going to parties and having all this fun while i’m.. not. all my life since i could remember, i just wanted to be DONE with school. i yearned for the day when i could stop going to school, but i guess the ironic thing is that no one tells you how much life sucks when school is over, how much better being in school is than being in the “real world”. no one ever told me that, but everyone apparently agrees. WHY DO WE ALWAYS LEARN IMPORTANT LESSONS WHEN IT IS TOO DAMN LATE?!
on another note, i skyped with my boyfriend today. goldie, who was sitting in my lap, kept staring at his face on the computer screen, tilting her head from side to side and trying to figure out why her daddy wasn’t here. after a while of confusion, she ran to the door and sat there, looking back at me expectantly, like she thought he was outside and i was gonna get the door for him. sorry baby girl, 16 more days until you see your daddy. i miss him too.
i miss this little rascal like crazy. one more month til i get to snuggle with her again!